the silence is deafening. it probably is equally deafening to you as it is to me. much as i do not want to speculate on what is going on in your mind right now, i cannot help but wonder where you are and what you are doing. probably looking for a means to cope with the emptiness at this point? work? probably not... you are not the person who can bury your sorrows in preoccupation. company? probably so but you are too secretive about your personal life to open-up to anyone on the foundation of mere friendship. companion? now there's a thought... i have to admit that i dread the idea of you finding another man at this point but you have always been the emotional one between us and as deep as this pain goes, your vulnerability makes that a likely possibility.
much as i am terrified by the idea, i guess, i have to learn to accept it. i am, afterall, no stranger to this emptiness. and like in any of the other storms i have endured, i will learn to wait out the mental anguish of this one. my eyes will learn to hide the tears, my pride will learn to be humbled by the experience and, sadly, my mind will once again learn to accept this failed attempt at disproving my solitary existence.
much as i am terrified by the idea, i guess, i have to learn to accept it. i am, afterall, no stranger to this emptiness. and like in any of the other storms i have endured, i will learn to wait out the mental anguish of this one. my eyes will learn to hide the tears, my pride will learn to be humbled by the experience and, sadly, my mind will once again learn to accept this failed attempt at disproving my solitary existence.
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how long has it been since the last text message? i'm not sure how i should react to your silence. just a few days before i stopped sending you text messages, i already sensed the despair that was eating into the relationship. you won't initiate a text conversation even if it meant we would go through the entire day without hearing anything from each other. not that i blame you for it but i knew that if i stopped sending you a message, that would spell the end of it. eventually, i did and this is what happened just as i predicted it.
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how'd you like me to react? :)
we're not expecting anything from each other..
even if we're hurting, we still love each other. :)
we're not expecting anything from each other..
even if we're hurting, we still love each other. :)
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